The Courage to Try
Asking What I Truly Love — and Acting Accordingly
#42
There is a time and season for everything in life, and I have found myself often trying new things that do not gain traction in the way I would have liked. Sometimes I can feel embarrassment in that — oh, I tried it and really felt like it was in resonance, so why didn’t it take off? I have built the internal muscle of moving into action, which takes courage, but then an old paradigm of shame can emerge when, over time, it doesn’t convert.
Where does that come from? Societal pressure to have something go viral? The marketing we are fed that if you don’t succeed, then you are a failure? But isn’t that what Life is really about — trying on new things if you’re wanting to be creative, seeing what works and what doesn’t, and having joy in the process of discovering?
What these times on the planet feel like they are calling us toward is a more heart-centered way of living. And that can only happen when we are truly willing to see what is holding us back — limiting beliefs, old ways of being — and then say, I choose something different.
For me, I want to live the most expanded life possible. I don’t want to be in my later years wishing I had done the thing. I want adventure and play and to love full out. And so in stretching myself into trying new things, I stretch my inner capacity to do just that.
Since July of 2023 — when I put my home up for sale, downsized my life, sold it in October, and moved to an apartment — I have moved four times. Four times in under three years. And that doesn’t even include ten months on the travel road out of fifteen.
My friend Nina has asked me more than once over the recent years, “Did you ever see your life being this?” And I told her — I had no concept that it could ever have been this way. And yet somewhere in my awareness, it must have been, in order for me to create it.
Our physical lives are shaped by our thoughts, and what we consistently think eventually becomes reality. I am becoming much more intentional — not just about what I think I can have, but about what I would truly love.
Not what seems logical.
Not what feels safe.
But what I would truly love.
And then I work on creating the inner vibration to become a match for that desire. That means trying different action steps that may take me on the right path — or might take me a little off — and allowing that to be okay. It’s giving myself permission to experiment without blame or shame if it doesn’t work out exactly as I expected.
I can learn and even have fun in the process — even when I get frustrated, or invest in something that doesn’t bring back a return. Sometimes that’s easier said than done. But isn’t that what life is about?
Writing has been a love of mine that came online around 2017 when I wrote my first book. I had never seen myself as a writer, although in school I could follow the structure that was considered ideal and make it happen. But it wasn’t creative. It didn’t allow my soul to flow through.
So when I channel-wrote that book in seven hours and then had to bring it into the world — which required an entirely new level of skill set — I can look back now and see how deeply that experience developed me as a person. It took such a heavy internal lift to put myself out there in that way with such a personal book, and in doing so, it shattered inner barriers and raised me up to hold more of what I am truly worthy of.
It took years of personal growth work to integrate that expansion. And now, it is so much easier. There is Light on the other side.
And so all of this circles back to today, and to what is in my heart now as I lean into the question: What would I truly love?
I would truly love my next home — which requires a stable income and focus in this new work I am doing.
I would truly love to bring my second book to life — which requires more quiet space in order to create.
And I would truly love to savor this next chapter with Tim as we continue to laugh and play and love — which requires uninterrupted time, something we never get back.
To that end, I will move to a twice-monthly blog beginning next month. Not because I am stepping back, but because I am choosing to consolidate and create with more intention.
I also love creating content for Instagram and YouTube. It’s a fun and joyful outlet that allows — and pushes — me to think outside the box. If we aren’t consciously choosing to stretch and grow, we become stagnant. I would much prefer to live in the upward spiral of life than slide back down it.
We will never stay the same. So I choose to go higher. Besides, the view is way better up there. 🙂
I so look forward to sharing more with you. I receive so much joy putting my thoughts into words and releasing them into the ethers, allowing them to land where they may.
My sole intention is always soul growth. Because to that end, we become more free to express our deepest and truest selves — to live a life we truly love.
Not one we think we can have.
But the one we were born to experience.
I can’t wait to share more of the adventures with you.
To your highest and best,
Dianna
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